So, pregnancy, to some is a pleasant, miraculous experience. I've heard it said over and over. Let me just tell you, that yes, I know it is a miracle how God grows life inside of you, but I find nothing about the experience itself to be something natural or enjoyable. I feel quite strongly that the actually means of pregnancy and childbirth are due to the fall, and if it hadn't been for sin entering the world, there surely would have been some other way to experience this "miracle" =).
Before you find me too cynical, please realize that I'm partly saying this in jest, and that I feel I should get a pass regardless on my cynicism, because afterall, this is coming from a girl who, out of the past 2 years, has been pregnancy 18 months of them. Yes, you heard it right. Put yourself in my shoes, and see if you feel all warm and gooey about pregnancy.
Yes, it is worth it in the end, I realize that. It was with Allie and I know it will be with little Pierce, but I can't say after consuming approximately 480 Zofrans in the past 2 years that I'll miss any of it. In fact, I can say that I'll be quite happy to enter a nice LONG period of time without thinking about those things!
People are always asking how I'm feeling these days, and my response is usually fine. Fine. What does that really mean? It means, I suppose, that each day passes, and while some days I feel more disgusting than the day before, some days are not quite so bad. It means that as my body continues to expand, and feel sore, and like it is slowly being ripped apart, as I sit here helpless in the matter, that I guess in my condition I'd classify myself as fine.
At the beginning of this pregnancy, I was in no particular hurry to have this baby, because the thought of a 15 1/2 month old and an infant terrified (and to some extent still does terrify) me, but I can officially say that I'm at the point where I am ready for him to make his entrance. Terrified or not, I'd say taking care of two precious little ones has got to beat being pregnant any day!
Oh, and for those of you who say you miss being pregnant, I say you are nuts! =) Just my opinion, though!
I totally feel ya on the whole pregnancy thing! It's sweet and all, but to me it's the step in getting the real prize! I wasn't sick to my stomach much, but had some other annoying issues arise and would have pain in parts of my body I didn't even know I had! I prefer when the baby is actually out to my body being taken over by another life form. Can't wait to see pics when Pierce does make his enterance! Hang in there, I'm sure the intense heat hasn't been helping!
ReplyDeletethanks Rachel for the encouraging words on pregnancy!!! Not!
ReplyDeleteHaha just keeping it real, candace. Everyone has the right to know what they're getting themselves into! :)
ReplyDeleteMy hubby and I just celebrated our 5th anniversary. I realized I had spent almost half of our marriage at that point, pregnant! And, it was only our 2nd of 5 anniversaries that I wasn't pregnant. Crazy. Needless to say, it was glorious!
ReplyDeleteGod is good though- I remember with the first two (when I was only not pregnant for 4 months) I felt like those 4 mts didn't happen- I had just been preggo for all that time straight. But with the third- where I had a 15 month stretch of not being pregnant, it was like I already couldn't quite remember how miserable I was. It's amazing how in the thick of it you can't remember what it feels like to NOT be pregnant, but then not long, you can hardly remember what it did feel like. Am I making an sense? Ha!
Yes, once you hold that sweet little boy, the last thing on your mind will be how miserable you were (well besides in that moment of instant relief when he is born, is that TMI?=)And you really are going to love having them so close, they will be best buds!
oh rachel! this made me smile...i mean, it was kind of nice to hear someone talk truthfully about how they feel being pregnant. you know i know what it feels like to be so sick, but i will say that there is just something about pregnancy that i love! call me crazy! in some ways i miss being pregnant and in some ways i dont(like the puking for 8 of the 9 months!) as hard as it is when you are going through it i can look back on it and have good memories of it. make sense?
ReplyDeleteYes, I understand. Can't say that I believe ill ever actually MISS it, but who knows? I guess I never really had the chance! Ha
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