So, Apparently I'm....

Yes, it's true. How can this be? You may ask. Trust me, I'm thinking the same thing! And for those of you who are thinking it.... NO, this was definitely not planned. Not in our plans, at least. But, apparently, God had something different in mind.

Now, I don't know for sure how far along I am, so we don't have any exact due date yet, but it looks like they will be approximately 16 months apart. WOW. Can I handle that? I hope so.

My mind has been racing over the past week. First I was in shock and denial. I really didn't even want to tell people, because I just didn't want to talk about it. Then, I moved on to freaking out. Thinking of all the things we need: a new crib/nursery furniture (I'd originally planned to just use Allie's, since we were planning on the 3-4 years-in-between-kids plan); a double stroller (ugh); cleaned out closets for storage space for toys, etc., since we'll no longer have the "play room"; more hospital bills, etc. Then, I went on to stressing about recovering from a C-Sec and not even being able to pick up Allie. The question even crossed my mind, "With two kids that close together, what will I do with them while I do things like, hmm.. take a shower?!"

I think I'm finally at the stage of acceptance. Afterall, children truly are a blessing from the Lord. And, I really do know that even though right now, I just can't really picture my life with an infant and a 16 month old, there will be a day when I won't be able to picture it any other way!

So, there you have it. Surprise.

Oh, and if you know anyone who is wanting to get rid of a double stroller and/or crib/furniture set, let me know. I'm in the market for a deal!